Tonight was Tori’s Kindergarten concert, and the program ended with a simple dance routine to this song by R. Kelly – The World’s Greatest.
I have to say, this song couldn’t have come at a better time. I’m in that place where it would be very easy to doubt myself, to lose hope, to give in to fear and anxiety and anger and all the other demons beating down the door to get a piece of my serenity. I am not where I want to be, in my family life, in my career, in my spiritual life. But I’ve come this far by faith, and I know that I have to keep the faith as best I can. Sometimes that means “faking it ‘til I make it,” but even that is better than rolling over and giving in to despair.
Today, I believe in myself. No, I believe in my higher power. I believe that everything is unfolding exactly as it should and that I am safe in the care of Loving Hands, and that Time – my ultimate higher power – will work everything out to the good eventually. I just have to go with the flow. I have to keep my sights on where I am going, not where I am.
Today, I have vision. Today, I have hope. Today, God is simply chipping away everything that is in the way of me being what I already am – the greatest.