Like eating. Like taking a shower and brushing my teeth. Like refueling the car. I used to believe that “giving my heart to Jesus” was a one-time act, but I’m learning that it’s a daily practice. I only need to make the decision once, just like I only need to be baptized once. But the actual work of turning my life and will over to the care of a higher power is something that can only be done 24 hours at a time.
I heard this song on the way to church yesterday – “I Need You” by Plumb, and it really resonated with me. I’m so grateful to not be in dark times right now, but so many of my friends are, and my heart does ache for them. I’m beginning to realize that God doesn’t promise that the road will be free from pain. The rain falls on the just and the unjust. My relationship with God is what makes the ups and downs have meaning. Maybe not everyone needs God, or maybe God is for people who want God, not for people who need God.